I'd only been on about six or seven dates with The Dude spread across a month.
We'd spent a couple of nights together, done the couple thing of going dancing, cooking together, goofing around at the museum, getting Saturday morning brunch, watching the telly together, getting to know each other's sense of humour, sharing music playlists, having intense conversations about politics and religion, finding out about each others relationship history, etc. and my most favourite bit - singing along to Natalie Imbruglia's Torn.
Sure, nothing to get attached to so quickly. Except, I'd known The Dude for longer than the one month.
I went on a couple of dates with The Dude last year and when I'd gone away on a holiday and got back, The Dude had gone quiet on me. Basically, he had ghosted me. For those of you who follow me on Twitter, I'd referred to that guy as The Donkey Man. I was upset about how he'd chosen to end things last year around the same time, but I decided to move on (albeit a hard thing to do) and I ended up meeting Gingerbeard and come December had completely forgotten Donkey Man existed.
In May, Donkey Man reached out to me apologising about his behaviour explaining that it was a weird time for him and that ghosting was the wrong thing to do. I didn't make very much of it. I acknowledged the text and carried on living my life. Except, every now and again he'd message me. I ignored him most of the time; it was usually a text asking me how I was, etc. One evening, perhaps when I was bored around July, I messaged him back and we started chatting. It reminded me of how funny he was and how chatting to him was really easy. We bounced off each other like we did a year ago and after chatting consistently for a bit, he asked me out.
Here's when it got tricky. I remember sex with The Dude being amazing, and my dry spell was getting close to a year, so, yeah, I was desperate to get laid and I thought to myself, well, at least with The Dude, it would be great. Just sleep with him and never call him again. Obviously, I just don't have it in me to be this cruel to anybody.
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